Hello final 2,
I’m writing this in between class sessions so if the phrasing is stilted then forgive me, I want to get my thoughts out of the way so i can be at peace with my experience on this org, and to move on.
I guess formalities I will thank the hosts for putting the season together, as well as anyone who supported me during this season, and I believe I can say on behalf of everyone that it’s good that this season will be ending, because it has frankly been tiresome to be apart of near the end, so again, if my stilted speech also has burnt out undertones, then that is why.
Now I want to address the two of you, I want to be objective and not emotional with what decision I make, but let’s be real here: how can I not be a little bit emotionally based in my thinking? one of you is about to win a second time, that’s a massive title to hold, we can talk for eons about how things could’ve been different, i’m guilty of that, and regarding you two being a less than desirable final 2, but I know emotions withstanding, that would be a disservice to the success that you two had (although to variable degrees as you will see whoops) in this game, so if I address things emotionally, I can’t help but feel this way, this vote is important and I need to let my feels out.
I am truthfully having a lot of difficulty considering voting for you, and I think in the past when I've been a jury member, I would be more lenient with gameplay if 1) this wasn’t an all winners season and 2) if you gave explanations for your poor execution of your gameplay.
You cannot justify bad gameplay with the excuse of implementing frameworks such as “the goat strategy” or “the meat shield strategy” because you need a social game to position yourself and know how you are perceived, and how you can use shields to ensure people leave before you do, and you legitimately mentioned in your speech you had no idea where anyones head was at during this whole game, and it’s hard to implement a social strategy like “I’m intentionally making people perceive me as a goat” or “I’m intentionally using meat shields” if you aren’t aware of the social networks of the game, and not only did you admit it, you also tried to play off your fumbling gameplay (as you categorized as erative) as “a gateway to play a calculating game”, and i’m sorry but that just isn’t true.
Let me list your erratic behaviour from my perspective:
- refusing to go up as a pawn out of fear that you had not built a social game, forcing two other people to do so in your place (Week 1)
- leaking your entire alliance to Mackie and dismantling a group that had your loyalty (bar me) in mind. (Week 2)
- coming up to me panicked that tyler was going to stay after ignoring me, expecting me to vote with you to keep Tara (Week 3)
- making a deal with Mackie and Joe that you would keep them safe, only to break your deal with both of them and showing that you cannot keep your word. (Week 5)
- Coming to me after having what I can only describe as a temper tantrum towards Mackie for being left out of an alliance, and irrationally thinking I would vote Mackie off.
It was irrational because you did not indicate to me any desire to work with me post eliminating your “meat shields”, You even said to me “Nick is a threat” and i said “so we can take him out at 6” and you said “no” so you were irrational in your implementation of making moves… What week are we on? Oh yea (Week 8)
- During the triple, you believed the deal that I had made with you, so you kept me off the block, when you could’ve easily have put me on with slim and evicted Mackie with the help of Nick and Brandon, but again, you chose to believe what I said after us having no social at all bar our one call. (Triple Eviction)
- Trying to get Nick to not only throw the final 4 HoH (which again, you should know there was no incentive for him to do that), which only made him gun for the Hoh harder, and then after throwing the veto at Final 4, which I assume was to ensure Tasha left, you tried to convince Nick to NOT use the veto he just won on himself, and threatened him that you would not vote for him if you were on the jury. (Week 10)
As you can see, from my perspective, I think the decisions you made strategically were really negative, very little of what you did made a lot of sense strategically (until i’d argue the final 5), because you couldn’t gauge what made sense because socially, you were frankly really bad, and I am being very harsh, but as a jury member, you need to be a little bit more purposeful in how you have people leave this game and how they feel about you, and we not only lacked a social connection, but i did not enjoy either of our calls, it felt very awkward and unpleasant to talk to you, in fact I’d almost feel you talked down to me and gloated about how you could get away with these oversights (especially regarding things that affected Tasha, in which you actively gloated about getting away with doing anything against her, knowing she was always going to pick you over anyone regardless of your actions).
There’s selfish in the context of gameplay, which we all are guilty of being, but then there’s selfishness that goes beyond the game and actively intersecting into people's lives only to tickle your insecurities about your game, yell at people for not doing what you wanted, and multiple instances that I mentioned in the above week breakdown, and other instances people have mentioned, just makes me perceive you as very selfish and makes me feel a little gross about endorsing that,
There is nothing charming about a self indulgent victim, that doesn’t own up to being a victim of their own faults, but summising it as intentional gameplay, when obviously it was purely emotional/self loathing that got you into the position you were in.
So can I end on any strengths with you? I think a couple moves such as:
- You trying to lose extraction so you couldn’t get backdoored was smart
- And I think while you oversold giving up at the end, it wasn’t the worst idea, though most of your success can be attributed to guilting Tasha into repaying you for keeping Mackie at the triple, that was smart, but again you actively used her and gloated about it to me on call, a way that makes me feel really gross in supporting.
-You seemingly throwing comps at the end was good, because you knew you weren’t a target, and you didn’t need to get blood on your hands by being put in an executive spot, since you knew your position from final 5 onwards, which was good.
- I think your goal to not rely on the physical game was good, but imo if you were going to decrease your reliance on comps, you had to rely on something else: social or strategy… and I clearly take issue with both.
There’s things here and there that you can attribute as good, but they’re just a margin when comparing it against the existing issues that I have that void most of the above mentioned good moves you made.
So I guess my question for you is: What can you say that can make me overlook the glaring issues I take in your game I've mentioned above, and vote for you to win?
If you think my vote is lost you don’t have to answer, but I'm not 100% locked onto voting Nick, and this vote is for a second win.
Hi Nick, I want to get out of the way that I respect our connection we had in this game, it was pretty transparent that we weren’t in each others end game plans, and we were only forced by circumstance to vent in each other at the late game, but I didn’t mind that because I enjoyed your presence enough that I don’t hold il will towards you in the context of this game in comparison to Felix. I appreciate that you were congruent about not taking me to final 2 at Part 1 as opposed to like 10/15 minutes prior to evicting me, and we were able to have good chats that were more honest because of you being forward at Final 3.
I do want to say you left a bit of a “meh” taste in my mouth on the way out, when you said “at least you get to be reunited with mackie, your one true love”, like I really don’t think that’s the best thing to say to someone on your way out? It’s not an issue of intention, it’s just reading the room, you knew i was anxious facing you in a physical comp and you kept saying things like “this is exciting” like no it’s not exciting to be in a comp that determines your fate like?, I do think socially while we got along, you did say things that made me feel you typed before thinking, and showed you weren’t inherently aware of how you came off via text, just think it’s important that’s mentioned because in your responses to other people so far, I think what you want to say isn’t being conveyed, you might want to try a video response instead.
Now onto your game:
I feel like you are the Kevin Martin of this season, I do not like Kevin Martin’s game, you can ask George, he will confirm this LOL but it’s the analogy i’ve landed on mainly in how you won out from the final 8 onwards, which I respect to an extent because you put in the hours for those competitions, evident in how you fell asleep at the final 4 and lost that HoH, which you shouldn’t be accused of doing on purpose, i know how horrible that challenge was, you wouldn’t go 5 hours only to lose safety.
I think unlike Kevin, you did branch yourself out successfully enough by making allies with Adam & Slim, as well as having Tyler and Brandon (and by extension Joe, but we all know how unreliable he was LOL), and you were good glue for your core group of allies, I would say your social (at least as above) was good, even with people like me who you weren’t inherently working closely with, you at least attempted to talk with me. I would say your social helped you out a lot more in a pinch than your strategy, for 10 at example, since Adam was adamant that Tyler left over you, I credit social to that, you weren’t like a social butterfly like others on this cast, and i did consider voting you, but you at least weren’t socially disdained like Tyler, so I have to give a nod to that helping you stay, because people were at least contemplating you going home.
Strategically… I think while i appreciate the move you made week 1 basically shaped this whole season, it did put a target on your back that you couldn’t escape, and week 2 I literally have no idea why you won that veto and decided not to use it when you had immunity from extraction, people noted how you got a super fast time, so imo it put more of a target on your back unnecessarily since you chose not to exercise the veto, why not just throw the challenge since you have extraction immunity? Week 3 you got put up by extraction, and if you didn’t win that veto, I think you would’ve gone home due to being perceived as a huge physical threat at that point, so I do question your long term thinking in those weeks
While you did successfully navigate the middle of the game not being targeted as much past week 3, you were pretty transparent in my eyes with the use of downplaying your threat level with your disadvantages, but again, it was better you at least attempted to diminish your threat level, and it worked since you are there at final 2 LOL.
I also felt you were transparent in trying to get me to do what you wanted, when I came to you at final 9, I asked a simple question “what are you thinking about the vote” and you like lightning replied “well we’re obviously keeping Adam there isn’t anything to gain keeping Tasha”, which was just so easy to read as you protecting Adam for your long term game.
For me, much like Kevin, your strategy is positioning left a lot to be desired,and that is my biggest issue with your game, with the the triple eviction being your biggest offender and here’s why:
I didn’t tell you while we were in the game, but if Mackie (who almost won that HoH by probably a millisecond) was to nominate anyone, it would’ve been You, Felix and Brandon, and we saw with the results of PoV that Felix beat you in the PoV, so hypothetically, if Mackie won that HoH, you would’ve gone home almost guaranteed, and that is not great positioning if you staying in the game was reliant on a crap shoot HoH.
The other issue was you not being able to influence Felix in keeping your allies off the block, i had burnt felix multiple times in this game, had no social game with him, but I made sure to use the one call I had with him to convince I would evict Mackie, idk how you couldn’t have counteracted my lack of social with felix with you having a bond with him, I really think with what you’ve told me regarding your connection with Felix that you could’ve influenced him, obviously there’s more to say about Felix being moronic about making those noms, but that decision was at the cost of your allies, hell, you could’ve even told him to backdoor me and save one of Brandon or Slim, he won the veto at the triple, but you just… I'm assuming thought I was keeping Brandon?
I just don’t know how you could’ve allowed Felix to eliminate 2 of your closest allies and put yourself in a position where you had to win your way out, that is what perplexes me, and you not explaining that in any of your answers or your speech doesn’t make me feel entirely great about voting you to win when you weren’t aware of that massive stroke of luck.
I respect you a lot for working really hard this game, but I’m feeling like in big instances you could’ve worked a lot smarter.
Can you explain your strategic decision making in what I've highlighted?
I need to be confident that if I vote you, that there were genuine reasons for these strategic oversights. I know I’ve been very harsh with you strategically, I think your game is appealing and has really good merits, but just for me personally, I want to know your thought process and I need that to be genuinely conveyed, please don’t lie in your answer. :/
Okay sorry for the long speech, i've left a lot for you guys to digest, I really just need to be confident I can get answers that help me with the decision... and speaking of digesting
I will perform eating, and leave you guys to it: